Day 18

This now begins Day 18 of this journey that I wouldn't have chosen, humanly speaking,  but it is the way God has ordained for me to go at least for now.  I was happy and content being married and relying on my husband.  As God's child, I know that if He chose this way for me, it has to be the best for me.  One thing I can say.  When I've been low, God has lifted me up and when I felt I couldn't go on, He carried me through.   I have learned that I did lean a lot on my husband instead of leaning more on the Lord.  God had blessed me with a Godly man.  Mark was full of wisdom and knowledge.  I had looked to my husband for spiritual advice as well as advice of earthly things.  He always seemed to know what was best for me.   I do miss talking with him and finding his opinion of various things.  This is when I'll need to look to Christ which  I should have been doing more of, anyway.  God definitely knows our weaknesses and how frail we are.  Some words in the song,  "My Desire to be Like Jesus" just came to mind.  His Spirit fill me, His love o'er-whelm me.  Lord help me to be strong in you and look to you for all my needs.